I have to completely forget and numb out
When I was young I learned how to switch off all emotion
I thought I had lost that ability for a while but thank God I havent
I can switch off all feelings to someone
When I don’t want to deal with it anymore
That my way of breaking free of them
I don’t like being used or being played so when I am
I abuse
Myself and the one who abused me
I don’t like being lied to so in the end I end up
Tearing them down
To pay them back
Fucked up isnt it?
When someone breaks my heart I make them hurt.
Even though I really try not to
Even when I don’t want to
But don’t call me a liar when I say that I loved you
Because then Ill want to destroy you…
